I dis­covered a bunch of things about myself during my travels in Europe in 2003. Here’s a per­manent reminder to myself about some of them.

  • I not only like being on my own these days, it’s a neces­sity for my hap­pi­ness
  • I really love museums and inter­esting art
  • His­tory and politics still fas­cinate me
  • Dis­cus­sions about politics and film with good red wine and great food are still my favourite
  • The right sort of music can make you feel good no matter where you are
  • I really do want a kid and prob­ably soon
  • I’m really looking for­ward to having a cat again; free cute black kitten wanted…
  • I loved my old job and I really do want some­thing like it again after all, but in the mean­time, I have other options
  • Even if I never get a fab­ulously amazing job again, I could hap­pily live a life that involved working peri­od­ic­ally so long as I got to travel like that every (European) summer.
  • Expect­a­tions are what get me every time. I just have to stop ima­gining how good the nightclub/drinks with friends/whatever is going to be and then I won’t feel so let down when it doesn’t mater­i­alise, or when the people I’m expecting will call me don’t call me back.
  • I’m appar­ently one-night stand material but not second date material and def­in­itely not rela­tion­ship material at this stage.
  • But I can’t be too bad on first impres­sions, because at least I had quite a few one night stands
  • My thesis is slightly on the wrong track, but it’s close to where it needs to be. My super­visor is def­in­itely right to keep using the term ‘lan­guage wars’ and I think I’ll be able to throw myself into this prop­erly again soon.
  • I have a lot more patience than I remembered. Or at least, my patience has really improved and I like myself better with patience.
  • Some of the people I think are my friends are often not my friends. I need to let them go.
  • I crave the kind of light-hearted, gather-regularly-for-drinks com­munity that I seem to read about reg­u­larly on your various journals but I don’t think I’ll ever be a part of those com­munities.
  • I love lan­guage in all its forms
  • I never ever want to work for Mur­doch ever again
  • I really hate the insec­urity of freel­an­cing
  • A press pass is a won­derful thing
  • I need wide streets with trees to make a city bear­able
  • I hate traffic
  • Crowded cities make people rude
  • People can be cruel, espe­cially when they feel they have no respons­ib­ility to you because they only just met you
  • Other people are incred­ibly gen­erous with their time, money and intel­lect even to com­plete strangers
  • Hap­pi­ness is a night of museums sur­rounded by other inter­ested strangers
  • Hap­pi­ness is wild sex with a great kisser on the top deck of a boat in the middle of the baltic sea.
  • Hap­pi­ness is sit­ting in the sun on the banks of the Tajo with a good book
  • Hap­pi­ness is great food and great wine with new and old friends in cosy houses
  • Hap­pi­ness is dan­cing to excel­lent music in clubs with people you know (Family in Toledo, Roxy in Prague)
  • Hap­pi­ness is sun­sets, water and trees